I realized I have not been on here in quite some time. Yet my yearnings are still quite the same. Jason shows. haha. Sunday is the day in Madison. Should be a grand ol' time. I'm pickin up my sis in Milwaukee, but making some time to hang out with her and the babe before we go, of course. Man, what a cutie. I knew Anna would have a good lookin kid. It is crazy to think my little sis has a son. wow. a nephew. Such a weird thing to experience. I have my kitty Gunther and he's a handful. Can't imagine one that cries and really needs me. Gunth is just let loose to do as he pleases. Well around the house anyway. I just can't get over it. I tend to wonder what a child my look like of my own, but I know we will never have one. Not on purpose anyway. Besides I just don't know if I could bring someone into the mess life is at the moment. We live paycheck to paycheck, barely. I couldn't even fathom having another person to take care of. I am a work-aholic and Rick's favorite thing to do is play loud music in bars and other loud places. (good music, but loud.) I just don't think we'd be the best fit. Plus I can't take anymore questions. I think my brain might explode. Work has been killer. My team is wonderful, but sometimes I think they need to be more proactive in decision making. I'm trying to teach them, but I know they also want to do it right. I think you have to make a few mistakes or try something new. I don't know everything. I make it up too. who knows. The stress is killing me. I am barely awake each day. I'm not sure the last day I had off. (technically it was Easter, but driving down to see your sister have a baby totally counts as stress and a not so day off day off) Not only no days off, but 12-14 hour days. dyin' here. Ready for the weekend. I'm takin a whole 3 days off! can you believe it? I know I can't. Well now that I have been rambling, I'm going to go. very tired.

well kids I did it. I'm married.

some amazing wedding photos

I expect you all to be there. :)

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otherwise you can purchase from me for the "locals rate" of $25 for the 3 day pass :)

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did I mention Todd Carey is going to be there too?!

So I was laying on my couch half dead... when the phone rang. Cheryl. I answer. sexiness. I hear Jason's voice floating through the telephone. genius. my god I miss him. I was trying to figure out when was my last show.... I came to realize the last time I saw him was a year ago in San Diego. My last mraz show was the September before that with the Take It Easy Buddies, I believe. I think I might just fall apart. Hearing his voice made me realize what I chased the country for. peace. happiness. love. Why could someone have an effect like that on you?? From the rumors floating from a couple of very good sources, there will be a tour starting in April. Mind you, this gal will be there. I don't know how, I have never been more broke in my life, but I will get there....

somehow....

Date:	2007-12-17 23:03
Subject:	well hello there.
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Rick Younglove, my honey

So here I am sittin in my living room, a very cute room I might add... I just got home from a holiday party/gathering/ of sorts. how fun!! It was a bunch of people that I met through bowling league actually... haha. Rick I were discussing the fact of how much older everyone is than us. We were also discussing how no one looks that old... until they start talking about how their kid is finally in college... oh geez. I realized how old I have become though as well. The older I get, the younger other people look. Almost like I don't want to accept the fact that I'm an oldie. Man I don't know why you don't live up here burgs, this place is FULL of oldies!! hehe. According to Rick they all eye me up. I think he's crazy. He says it's not like they would do anything, but that they look at me like I'm some hot gal or something. Rick gets all defensive, it's cute knowing my babe wants me just for him. It's so weird to think that way. I mean of course us ladies always want some wonderful man to come sweep us off our feet and love and cherish us and never would want to let us go, but who thought I would actually GET THAT?! Oh goodness. You guys HAVE to hear this song that Rick wrote for me. He won't put it up on myspace because he wants to release it with his next album. It is soooo amazing. I wish I could put it up on here somewhere. You'll just have to visit me and hear it that way! Seriously, I started crying when I heard it the first time. He amazes me every day...

life changes so quickly, we barely have time to grasp what is happening... right now I love it. Door County somehow puts a smile on my face, and so easily too. Sure my job has the normal gripes, but overall I'm a happy gal. Could use some more time to get the house together, but everytime I step into it, I know I made the right choice. (maybe not so much when the dryer is making a weird creaking noise like it is now, but heck I'll get it fixed or something...) But when I climb down into a crawl space, with detergent and such at my head level on the floor in the closet, my body in the hole reaching for the washer lid, and me trying to avoid spider webs below... somehow I still have a smile. I hope you all get a chance to come see my place sometime... It really is "me". I am even working on making curtains for the living room. What can I say, drapes were WAY too expenisive, but I did find some nice sheets on clearance :)

Well this gal needs more sleep, but I wanted you all to know that I am alive, just busy.

love.

Well this year I may not have been watching "fireworks from the freeway" but I did have a really neat view of all kinds of fireworks from the rooptop deck. It was maddness, they were everywhere and went into the wee hours of the morning.... Rick's friend Matt and his roommate Heidi and friend Nicole came over... Rick grilled some amazing food as well. what a great 4th it was. Sadness though without sparklers, snakes, and snaps though. Must note that for next year. Great time thinking about the ol' house boat days, wow were we spoiled. (and I loved every minute of it, and will cherish it forever)

Hope you all had a great 4th too!!!

so today I fina;lly offically meade friends at my new job. adka we went out for drinks. (if you couldn't tell) we went to The Union on Halsteed. It was fun. me and rick went anad mme my friends. it was great. I am drunk. My friend Chris adn Giovanna are possib.y dating we'llsee how that turnsout... not sure. they are cute thouigh.


gotta go to bed, ricks calling em.
love you, sarah jean

okay. sorry drunk. come hback later.

job hunting:

Container Store: been through a phone interview, group interview, and 2 one on one interviews. I have my third one on one on the 15th... hopefully all these interviews are a good thing :)

Bed, Bath, and Beyond: emailed me last week, but haven't said anything since

Sports Authority: called to set up an interview time, calling them back tomorrow


...not too bad for being 3 weeks since I applied...


so we'll see how it goes... eek.

Everyday that I enter Target, I instantly get depressed. From the moment I step in, I want to go home. I can feel myself moping all day. It sucks. I hate that feeling, even when I try to pep myself up, I can feel the glumness just fall right back on me... gotta get out... soon....


This past weekend Rick's dad came to visit, we had a blast, I'll post pics soon hopefully.

miss you all, stay healthy, wish you the best.

So I think I may or may not have mentioned the fact that I did not get my promotion... According to Target if I wanted, I could drive 2 hours south each day and work as an ETL (Executive Team Lead) in the south burbs. (fuck that) But as far as the city goes, I'm not good enough. According to them I am not "global" enough. Which I guess means that even though I do every else's job, it's not enough... BUT I can work at the store I am at for the next 6months- and take on extra teams, etc to "get more global experience"- and then re-apply... so I'm going with my uncle on this one... "fuck target." Besides that Target was nice enough to tell me that I didn't get the job, at the beginning of my shift (on a Sunday of all days- busy as hell) and the past week and a half have been hell... I find myself doing everyone else's job and stop myself. I'm too good for this bullshit.

I started hard core searching for a new job, posting to every open job on the internet. Bed, Bath, and Beyond; Container Store; Staples; Levi Strauss; Sports Authority; Gap... and today I call from THE CONTAINER STORE!!!!!! EEK! I'm so pumped. When I moved to Chicago, that was the only place I had in mind to work!! I applied originally, but was turned down because I was over qualified for salesfloor, but under qualified for management. So I'm back baby- ready to go!!! Wish me luck! I have a phone interview on Thursday!!!

the adventure continues...

yesterday we got the instructions to DESTROY some men's t-shirts that were considered "too offensive". so we found the numbers that matched the t-shirt and what did it say...

"drop knowledge not bombs"

This is the t-shirt that must be DESTROYED because it was too offensive!!!!!! Are you kidding me? What is this world coming to??!!

Here's the scoop:

My friend, brian, is on the Tyra Banks show tomorrow. (as in Tuesday the 10th). This is the first tuesday I have to work in a long time and my tv that can tape does not get that channel...

SOOOO...

if you are in the...


Chicago Area... WPWR MY50 4:00 PM


Milwaukee Area... WMLW IND41 2:00 PM

:)

or here is the link to the times:
http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/showinfo/whenitson.html



Thanks a million for your time!!!!!!

Today was the final interview... I find out this week if I have what it takes to be a salary paid employee at Target.


hmm...

Hope they know that if they don't feel I have what it takes, I will going somewhere else that does. haha.

Today I got up, ate breakfast with my babe. Dropped him off at work and headed off on my own adventure. Crazy to think what you can get done in a day, even me let loose in the greatness of downtown Chicago. So I managed to stop by apple and make an appointment for my computer to get a fix-up. Then it was off to spend my gift certificate at Victoria Secret (from some sweet employees at christmas) on some new cute undies. Love em. Then it was off to Gap to return my Khakis that sucked and a pair that rock!! (I may have gotten a cute new brown long sleeve tee) Then it was off into the wild blue yonder again. Where I arrived a starbucks and now I'm on the computer hopin' to hear a certain sweet song from back in oceanside... sad to hear that won't be able to happen... well now I'm off to take in this lil ol computer for a fixin.

Have a great day in this lovely weather. I know I am.

:)

Tonight work was awful. So many people called off it was redic.


-a woman called to say she is returning her popcorn tomorrow because it was burned.
-a man had a hard time with a virgin mobile phone- leaving our manager busy for over an hour
-Jennifer Hudson came shopping- in which over half our employees bothered her for pics and followed her around- goodness.

that's just the beginning... back to hell tomorrow night. can't wait til my day off tuesday...

Well I do have some news on this Vday... It turns out I will not be moving to San Diego this fall... I have not yet had my interview at Target. Because of this, once I do, I will have to go through training before I am assigned a store. I have to be at a store at least 90 days before I can transfer. Well my lease is up too far in advance of that 90 days... Therefore I am going to stay here in Chicago another year. I think this is the best choice. It will be good to get my head in the Exectutive world of Target before moving on to a new city and new job. This way I take it one at a time. It will also be great to be with Rick for another year. We will possibly move apartments as well- hopefully for the bigger. (As my mom and Rick said, it will good for me to go through all of my shit) Plus a change of pace will be nice.

So yeah that's my news. Now I am off to watch movies and eat burgers and fries with my honey bunches.

love you.



happy valentine's day.

I'm in a funk again.

Not really sure what is going on. I know that I am nervous about this promotion. (and I've never been nervous like this before- especially for something I know I have worked hard for and deserve) Rick has been talking now that he may not be traveling, which makes me feel like then I'm just abandoning him and going to San Diego, instead of us both starting our adventures. So that's been bothering me too.

Lately I just feel like I'm not doing anything right, I can't remember shit and just seem to say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, all day long. Who knows, it just needs to stop.

Tomorrow I'm going to "clean house"- mentally and literally. Laundry is must and this house is just falling apart as usual. I really need to get myself to start sewing again too, or do my scrapbook of pics from Cali (if I can get myself to even put them all on the computer). I'm telling you it's a really bad funk.

HUMANMETRICS
Jung Typology Test

PROTECTOR GUARDIAN:
The primary desire of the Protector Guardian is to be of service to others, but here "service" means not so much furnishing others with the necessities of life (the Provider's concern), as guarding others against life's pitfalls and perils, that is, seeing to their safety and security. There is a large proportion of Protectors in the population, perhaps as much as ten percent. And a good thing, because they are steadfast in their protecting, and seem fulfilled in the degree they can insure the safekeeping of those in their family, their circle of friends, or their place of business.

Protectors find great satisfaction in assisting the downtrodden and can deal with disability and neediness in others better than any other type. They go about their task of caretaking modestly, unassumingly, and because of this their efforts are not sometimes fully appreciated. They are not as outgoing and talkative as the Providers, except with close friends and relatives. With these they can chat tirelessly about the ups and downs in their lives, moving (like all the Guardians) from topic to topic as they talk over their everyday concerns. However, their shyness with strangers is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth these Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves to those in need.

Their quietness ought really to be seen as an expression, not of coldness, but of their sincerity and seriousness of purpose. Like all the Guardians, Protectors have a highly developed puritan work ethic, which tells them that work is good, and that play must be earned-if indulged in at all. The least hedonic of all types, Protectors are willing to work long, long hours doing all the thankless jobs the other types seem content to ignore. Thoroughness and frugality are also virtues for Protectors. When they undertake a task, they will complete it if at all humanly possible; and they know the value of material resources and abhor the squandering or misuse of these resources. Protectors are quite content to work alone; indeed, they may experience some discomfort when placed in positions of authority, and may try to do everything themselves rather than insist that others do their jobs.

With their extraordinary commitment to security, and with their unusual talent for executing routines, Protectors do well in many careers that have to do with conservation: curators, private secretaries, librarians, middle-managers, police officers, and especially general medical practitioners. To be sure, the hospital is a natural haven for them; it is home to the family doctor, preserver of life and limb, and to the registered nurse, or licensed practical nurse, truly the angels of mercy. The insurance industry is also a good fit for Protectors. To save, to put something aside against an unpredictable future, to prepare for emergencies-these are important actions to Protectors, who as insurance agents want to see their clients in good hands, sheltered and protected.


Take it yourself!!